I'm officially 21 ~!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Wooh....I'm officially 21......hmmmm.....my very first wish for my birthday is to become more matured :)

Well, the birthday was just awesomeeeeeeee.....thanks everyone!!!!....thanks dearssss for putting so much efforts......i know u guys had been planned for the day for quite long......hehe.....really really appreciate it......thanks darling..thanks mei mei...thanks baobei...thanks Tengky teng....thanks for all the nicely wrapped presentsss....thanks for all your time...thanks for all the birthday wishes.....thanks for all the surpriseSSS  :) ..... ♥ ♥ ♥ (Too many surprises this year....almost get heart attack!...lol)

The very first surprise was given by the monkey friends that came all the way from KL to Kampar ♥...  They brought me to 21st in Kampar......talked craps (like usual) and drink. The night was fun and i didn't expect that there's another surprise for me when they sent me back. (Ky actually told Raymond about his plan to surprise me in my room....at 12 am.....so everything was planned nicely). When i reached home, i rushed into my room cause Jie wanted to use my toilet........but when i opened the toilet door, i was so shocked!......Kyean was holding a plate of cookies (made by himself, Evon and her sis)....nicely decorated with ribbons and also candles around.....He started to sing birthday song for me :) The very first thing that came into my mind was...."how the hell he get my room's key?????" (He told me he actually duplicated it few months ago after that @@) I was really surprised and happy, the cookies are nice.....although it looks a bit....hmmmm >.<

The next morning......woke up with stomach cramp....thought to skip the lecture class in case i fainted in the lecture hall again...lol.....but i didn't...i took painkillers....and eventually i felt better. Kyean said that he can't fetch me to class as he needs to settle his fyp stuffs, so he needs to reach sch damn early....and so, i decided to follow Peggy.....didn't sense anything gonna happens.......I reached lecture hall....walked in and paying so much attention on what the lecturer was teaching AS USUAL :).......when the lecture class ended......Kyean walked down...announced something about the Advertising exhibition ......and talked craps down there....=.=...saying that this is his last lecture class in Utar..bla bla bla....there was like few hundreds ppl in the class, i wondered why he got the guts to stand down there and talked like nobody @_____@!!! and yea.....he said la....that day is someone's birthday....(haha....i know he gonna say that)...and he asked everyone to sing a birthday song for me...my face gone red that time...seriously, i was damn shy ;)...just before the birthday song finish.....Krystal walked in.....holding a birthday cake and walked towards me. It was my fav Secret Recipe cake!..They are just too sweeeeeeeeeet......that's probably the best cake i ever had <3

(Kyean actually went to class early to plan the whole thing with the lecturer =.= no wonder Ms Jass was asking me how was my celebration in class that day...i wondered how she knows @@)

The forth surprise was given by Kyean as well.........he brought me to a nice restaurant in Ipoh (Secret Garden)...and i was told that we just gonna take our dinner somewhere near....or maybe the mamak nearby since he got stuffs to do =.=
When we reached the place, a table was nicely prepared with candles as Kyean told the boss that he is gonna celebrate my birthday....(the boss is actually Ky's friend and he kinda planned with him for the dinner few days before my birthday).....he told me that there's suppose to have saxophone player to play birthday song for me.....but he is not performing that day :( .....The night was awesome as well.....the food there are nice....and the environment is kinda romantic..soft songs playing with yellow lightings...nice atmosphere....hmmm....great place for dating :S

Let's see some pictures of this awesome dayyyy :)

the chocolate cookies ♥ 

First Bday cake- Chocolate Indulgence

Ky and the lecturer- Ms Tan

They have the most retarded face >.<

Me and the darling ♥

the first present :)

the second cake by Kyean :)

Second celebration with my Dearssss
They brought me to MidValley after Mildred and Yuki finished their work.......had lots of fun and took 8324826598673 of pictures as well~ (Not gonna upload the pic here ;))

We always have great time together....thanks dearies <3

Third celebration with ma family <3
Daddy booked a nice place for dinner, somewhere in Cannaught :) didn't take picture of myself as we all were busy eating that time >.<

Yummy~

That's all for my 21st birthday....it was probably one of the happiest day in my life :) thanks everyone....really appreciate it <3

Pre Graduation Shoot

1 more long trimester to go....we will officially graduate from our degree course...
Time flies....thought that life will be hard and torturing in Kampar...remember the first day i walked into the class with ShuPing...everyone stared at us like we are the aliens....probably thought we entered the wrong class (cause we skipped the first year)..i remember every single day of the first week.....it was like living in the hell..

Slowly....we get to know a gang of nice friends.....1year plus passed and we are graduating soon...this feeling was exactly like how i felt during the last few semesters in Diploma....
I know i gonna miss those time hanging out with my friends....fooling around....talk nonsense.....disturb each others...and a lot more after we graduate...

What's gonna happen after we graduate....
We will be on different track...different places...and busy with our life??? :(
But no matter how....i won't forget all the great memories in Kampar with d gang of crazy friends...

With the darling and BaoBei <3

the photographer~ HonLeong

d BaoBei <3

Mooooooo

TaiLoonggggggg :)

The classmates

d guys

<3

KokWei~~~

Even & Karen

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

TIRED OF YOUR LIFE?????....read this....

Institute of Silence

Sometimes...when you've been misunderstood..people blame you when it's not even your fault....You are tired to explain..you don't want to argue...just keep quiet...

Not everyone in the world have to know you....understand you..so, you don't need to explain everytime.....you don't need to argue so that everyone will eventually believe you.....you don't need to.....

But there are times that you are misunderstood by your love ones...you are too sad to argue....you are too sad to explain...and well, you chose to keep quiet.....

Everyone in the world can misunderstand you, can blame you for no reason.....but him/her should know, should understand you better than anyone else.....so if him/her chose not to trust you....whatelse you need to say...and why putting so much effort to explain just to make him/her trust you??? So, don't say anything....silence is perhaps the best way at this moment....and yea...it might be the best explaination.....

Just be cool....be calm~

You fall into the bottom of your life when everyone around you asked you to be strong...be happy....well, to be strong is absolutely necessary...but is it too hard for us to be happy in this case...

After all....who can actually be happy when they are fallen into deep shit??? But at least....just be cool.....be calm...be steady...try to solve your problem calmly...look at the matter steadily...settle everything that's supposed to be settled......there's no joy....just don't be depressed....

There is no what if

Life is a long long journey with infinate number of forks....we stop by to make choices all the time...well, choices like eating noodle or rice doesn't seem to affect us...but choices like which university to go for tertiary eduacation, which company to work, getting marry or not, whether to have children or not and so forth....there are far-reaching implications of each choices we made....different choices we take will bring an entirely different life..

We do not given the opportunity to repeat our life again so that we can also try on the other choices....."what if I chose to do this and that.....what if I don't take this last time......will it be the same as what i get now???" hmm.....every fork in our life......every choices we made don't actually caused good or bad to us......life is just about your ownself....don't regret...enjoy it to the max....think properly before any big decision is made.....do not look back....move forward and don't always think of 'what if'...

Don't think too much....everything is just simple

Sometimes, thinking too much will make our life complicated....we always look back....always worry about the future...

Just live our life at the moment...don't bother too much.....don't worry too much, be simple...there's no right or wrong in our life...

Control our emotions

Today wasn't a good day for you...because someone stabbed you.....You don't want to argue and you walked away...but it doen't mean that you can leave the situation of being hurt...you think back.....you get even hurt and angry......

You get so angry...and you neglected other important stuffs that need to be done...so why wasting so much effort to emo with someone.....don't waste your time.....don't waste the effort....don't let emotions control you..

So after all.....what we have to do is to be good to ourselves....don't be bad to other people......do what we have to do in our life....that's more than enough =)

Boring holiday~

Aiks....what a boring holiday...bumming at home everyday....and finally, i decided to draw something...

It was already half a year that i never draw using water colour...hmmm...Used about 3 days to finish the whole thing cause wasn't really in the drawing mood as my house was damn noisy....

tada~ Was actually checking on some nice photos online....and i saw this nice photo....

photo being converted into painting

And this is my masterpiece using water colour :)

and yea...i tried on some different methods on this drawing....used lots of dry brush

and the white colour part stil haven't dry after a long night =.=

D colour palette
and guess what, i never wash it since the first time i use..already 5 years i guess @@

LOVE and HATE

They used to say...when two people are in love, they love to make promises,they love to make each other to swear. I found it meaningless, since the first relationship that's now broken....

"till the ocean dry....till the sky falls....till the hair turns grey...till we both lying on the rocking chair and look at each other with wrinkled smile...bla bla bla....." sounds funny but yet...the promises were so sincere and i actually believe in it....naive right...LOL...

And so, i learnt not to make empty promises...and yea...not to trust people easily with all the promises now.....

Today i came across this meaningful article....it says that love is not possessive. "If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put in in your basin so that the moonlight only shines for you.." In other words, we shouldn't be selfish in love, there's million methods of possessing the one you love, some will just let him/her to become a permanent memory in their life...wishing him/her happiness...hoping that he/she will be with the one he/she loves most...but not stopping him/her from it..hmm..i think it is really magnanimous and indeed the greatest part of love??...love is not about keeping someone for your pride....but if both of them love each others a lot.....that will be a whole different story larr.....

People used to say that love only happens at the right place and the right time. Im definitely agreee with this......but sadly, it might not be the right person everytime....

Anyway, i believe that true love will never become hate..i wonder why the one that wanted to let go always the one that being blamed.....but at least the one that says it out has the courage...once he/she found out that you are not the right person....you should be thankful as he/she didn't drag it any longer...so why hate him/her???

Well, we are helpless as he/she chose to hate us right...but at least we gain soomething in each and every relationship......so i will never hate anyone that i loved/love... :)

Matta Fair....

Worked for Matta fair last weekend....super duper tired...all because of the heels and thick make up again...but luckily the agent allow me to wear flats after the first day..hehe...it was indeed a great experience....~!!
Met many new friends...and it was pretty fun...
What i need to do was just to ask people to join and sign as member of this Marina Bay Sands hotel.....thought it gonna be hard because it was pretty complicated....i mean the hotel packages...but during that 3 days......people will just come to our booth automatically....and ask....so we just need to explain to them briefly....and most of them wouldn't hesitate much cause it was a free membership thing...and it is a super famous 6 stars hotel in Singapore...on top of that, they can even get $20 Singapore dollar voucher!! WAU...how i wish i am 21 now ...so that i can sign for that also....and get this $20 voucher so that i can go to their sky park for free!!!! :(

The group photo with people from Marina Bay Sands, Singapore

The girls, and guess what...i am the shortest >.<

Super tall girl Elaine (she is 183 ~!!) and the sweet pretty girl Siew Mei =)

Me and Tiong Tiong...(cute girl with cute name..hehe)

And yea...this is Marina Bay Sands.. nice right~!!

The night view~

Noble

The Sky Park!!! Awhhh....

Being vulnerable doesn't have to be threatening.


Just have the courage to be sincere, open and honest.

This opens the door to deeper communication all around.

It creates self-empowerment and the kind of connections with others we all want in life.

Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us.

These secrets are what make us sick or fearful.

Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives.

-- Sara Paddison --

a stare that i will never forget....

It was suppose to be a nice weekend...we woke up early, accompanied mummy and daddy for breakfast as usual...and sent sis Sharon to work.....
Everything was fine....everyone talked and laughed in the car.....then suddenly we saw one accident right in front of us...probably just happened few seconds ago....It was a red car crashed on a motorcyclist....the motorcyclist lied on the floor.....in the middle of the road...and his helmet flied to the opposite road....
The next moment....daddy opened his seat belt....he wants to go down and get the helmet as it was blocking the opposite road...and i told my dad...." i will go down and get the helmet.."
So....i walked down the car.....walked to the opposite road...many cars coming.....but yet...nobody willing to help......i brought the helmet back to the motorcyclist that lying on the floor....and yea...thanks god....there's no blood....but he looks really painful and torturing...like he was suffering from internal injury..his pants was torn...zip was opened...probally being dragged by the car after the crash....DAMN
And i asked him..."are u okay??"......he gave me a real killer stare...first time in my life...i get a stare that terrified me....seriously....imagine a killer stare from someone that looks like he is gonna die.....he used all his energy...to stare at you with anger...probably...he thought i was the one that bang-ed him =='' .....and after that he turned away.....(like asking me to get lost)...''okay..i can't do anything...if you don't want me to help" i told myself....
I got back into the car....and mummy asked me.....is that indian guy okay....."i don't know....but he don't me to help".....
But i was kinda angry at that Chinese guy that hit him.....irresponsible bugger!......he was talking on the phone....never even look at the indian guy that he hit...damn wey......he was lying in the middle of the road...it was really dangerous as there are many cars coming on both sides...

After all.....the stare spoiled my day.....been wondering whether the motorcyclist is okay or not....hope he is still alive.....and yea....i never get such a scary stare....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

Janice's PreWedding Photos

The family picture =)

Sam & Janice

The Wedding Rings

Nothing much to write.....just hope that the brother-in-law and my dearest sis will stay happy and sweet forever....=)
Haha...it reminds me of one song that used to be my favourite...

I'll say my peace and i'll play my hand
And maybe this way you'll understand
I'm short on words i was raised that way
But i still mean all the ones i said
And with this ring i promise you
Everything that i have or can do
There's so many roads that love can run
But here in my heart, you're the only one
I do all right, here on my own
But you give me things i've never known
Oh here i am, getting up my nerve
It may not be all that you desserve
Here in my heart, You're the only one

-With This Ring, Sawyer Brown-

Thyroid

Daddy just found out that he got thyroid...its the genetic problem i guess...grandma got serious thyroid that couldn't cure even after few operations....Sis got thyroid also, but she is slowly getting better..i am really worry this time....i hope i can help him in his business....but i know nuts about ar spare parts....i know he is really stress of working and maintaining the business....

I promise i will appreciate him more... 

I promise i won't waste so much money from now on....

and whatelse i can do ..

You Just Don't Understand Me At ALL....

You said you hate it when i say other peole can understand me better than you, but you just don't understand me at all... You don't even know when i am angry...
You said people that get along too often will hardly notice any changes on each other, i thought get along more often makes them understand each others better ???