Pre Graduation Shoot

1 more long trimester to go....we will officially graduate from our degree course...
Time flies....thought that life will be hard and torturing in Kampar...remember the first day i walked into the class with ShuPing...everyone stared at us like we are the aliens....probably thought we entered the wrong class (cause we skipped the first year)..i remember every single day of the first week.....it was like living in the hell..

Slowly....we get to know a gang of nice friends.....1year plus passed and we are graduating soon...this feeling was exactly like how i felt during the last few semesters in Diploma....
I know i gonna miss those time hanging out with my friends....fooling around....talk nonsense.....disturb each others...and a lot more after we graduate...

What's gonna happen after we graduate....
We will be on different track...different places...and busy with our life??? :(
But no matter how....i won't forget all the great memories in Kampar with d gang of crazy friends...

With the darling and BaoBei <3

the photographer~ HonLeong

d BaoBei <3

Mooooooo

TaiLoonggggggg :)

The classmates

d guys

<3

KokWei~~~

Even & Karen

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

TIRED OF YOUR LIFE?????....read this....

Institute of Silence

Sometimes...when you've been misunderstood..people blame you when it's not even your fault....You are tired to explain..you don't want to argue...just keep quiet...

Not everyone in the world have to know you....understand you..so, you don't need to explain everytime.....you don't need to argue so that everyone will eventually believe you.....you don't need to.....

But there are times that you are misunderstood by your love ones...you are too sad to argue....you are too sad to explain...and well, you chose to keep quiet.....

Everyone in the world can misunderstand you, can blame you for no reason.....but him/her should know, should understand you better than anyone else.....so if him/her chose not to trust you....whatelse you need to say...and why putting so much effort to explain just to make him/her trust you??? So, don't say anything....silence is perhaps the best way at this moment....and yea...it might be the best explaination.....

Just be cool....be calm~

You fall into the bottom of your life when everyone around you asked you to be strong...be happy....well, to be strong is absolutely necessary...but is it too hard for us to be happy in this case...

After all....who can actually be happy when they are fallen into deep shit??? But at least....just be cool.....be calm...be steady...try to solve your problem calmly...look at the matter steadily...settle everything that's supposed to be settled......there's no joy....just don't be depressed....

There is no what if

Life is a long long journey with infinate number of forks....we stop by to make choices all the time...well, choices like eating noodle or rice doesn't seem to affect us...but choices like which university to go for tertiary eduacation, which company to work, getting marry or not, whether to have children or not and so forth....there are far-reaching implications of each choices we made....different choices we take will bring an entirely different life..

We do not given the opportunity to repeat our life again so that we can also try on the other choices....."what if I chose to do this and that.....what if I don't take this last time......will it be the same as what i get now???" hmm.....every fork in our life......every choices we made don't actually caused good or bad to us......life is just about your ownself....don't regret...enjoy it to the max....think properly before any big decision is made.....do not look back....move forward and don't always think of 'what if'...

Don't think too much....everything is just simple

Sometimes, thinking too much will make our life complicated....we always look back....always worry about the future...

Just live our life at the moment...don't bother too much.....don't worry too much, be simple...there's no right or wrong in our life...

Control our emotions

Today wasn't a good day for you...because someone stabbed you.....You don't want to argue and you walked away...but it doen't mean that you can leave the situation of being hurt...you think back.....you get even hurt and angry......

You get so angry...and you neglected other important stuffs that need to be done...so why wasting so much effort to emo with someone.....don't waste your time.....don't waste the effort....don't let emotions control you..

So after all.....what we have to do is to be good to ourselves....don't be bad to other people......do what we have to do in our life....that's more than enough =)

Boring holiday~

Aiks....what a boring holiday...bumming at home everyday....and finally, i decided to draw something...

It was already half a year that i never draw using water colour...hmmm...Used about 3 days to finish the whole thing cause wasn't really in the drawing mood as my house was damn noisy....

tada~ Was actually checking on some nice photos online....and i saw this nice photo....

photo being converted into painting

And this is my masterpiece using water colour :)

and yea...i tried on some different methods on this drawing....used lots of dry brush

and the white colour part stil haven't dry after a long night =.=

D colour palette
and guess what, i never wash it since the first time i use..already 5 years i guess @@

LOVE and HATE

They used to say...when two people are in love, they love to make promises,they love to make each other to swear. I found it meaningless, since the first relationship that's now broken....

"till the ocean dry....till the sky falls....till the hair turns grey...till we both lying on the rocking chair and look at each other with wrinkled smile...bla bla bla....." sounds funny but yet...the promises were so sincere and i actually believe in it....naive right...LOL...

And so, i learnt not to make empty promises...and yea...not to trust people easily with all the promises now.....

Today i came across this meaningful article....it says that love is not possessive. "If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put in in your basin so that the moonlight only shines for you.." In other words, we shouldn't be selfish in love, there's million methods of possessing the one you love, some will just let him/her to become a permanent memory in their life...wishing him/her happiness...hoping that he/she will be with the one he/she loves most...but not stopping him/her from it..hmm..i think it is really magnanimous and indeed the greatest part of love??...love is not about keeping someone for your pride....but if both of them love each others a lot.....that will be a whole different story larr.....

People used to say that love only happens at the right place and the right time. Im definitely agreee with this......but sadly, it might not be the right person everytime....

Anyway, i believe that true love will never become hate..i wonder why the one that wanted to let go always the one that being blamed.....but at least the one that says it out has the courage...once he/she found out that you are not the right person....you should be thankful as he/she didn't drag it any longer...so why hate him/her???

Well, we are helpless as he/she chose to hate us right...but at least we gain soomething in each and every relationship......so i will never hate anyone that i loved/love... :)

Matta Fair....

Worked for Matta fair last weekend....super duper tired...all because of the heels and thick make up again...but luckily the agent allow me to wear flats after the first day..hehe...it was indeed a great experience....~!!
Met many new friends...and it was pretty fun...
What i need to do was just to ask people to join and sign as member of this Marina Bay Sands hotel.....thought it gonna be hard because it was pretty complicated....i mean the hotel packages...but during that 3 days......people will just come to our booth automatically....and ask....so we just need to explain to them briefly....and most of them wouldn't hesitate much cause it was a free membership thing...and it is a super famous 6 stars hotel in Singapore...on top of that, they can even get $20 Singapore dollar voucher!! WAU...how i wish i am 21 now ...so that i can sign for that also....and get this $20 voucher so that i can go to their sky park for free!!!! :(

The group photo with people from Marina Bay Sands, Singapore

The girls, and guess what...i am the shortest >.<

Super tall girl Elaine (she is 183 ~!!) and the sweet pretty girl Siew Mei =)

Me and Tiong Tiong...(cute girl with cute name..hehe)

And yea...this is Marina Bay Sands.. nice right~!!

The night view~

Noble

The Sky Park!!! Awhhh....

Being vulnerable doesn't have to be threatening.


Just have the courage to be sincere, open and honest.

This opens the door to deeper communication all around.

It creates self-empowerment and the kind of connections with others we all want in life.

Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us.

These secrets are what make us sick or fearful.

Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives.

-- Sara Paddison --

a stare that i will never forget....

It was suppose to be a nice weekend...we woke up early, accompanied mummy and daddy for breakfast as usual...and sent sis Sharon to work.....
Everything was fine....everyone talked and laughed in the car.....then suddenly we saw one accident right in front of us...probably just happened few seconds ago....It was a red car crashed on a motorcyclist....the motorcyclist lied on the floor.....in the middle of the road...and his helmet flied to the opposite road....
The next moment....daddy opened his seat belt....he wants to go down and get the helmet as it was blocking the opposite road...and i told my dad...." i will go down and get the helmet.."
So....i walked down the car.....walked to the opposite road...many cars coming.....but yet...nobody willing to help......i brought the helmet back to the motorcyclist that lying on the floor....and yea...thanks god....there's no blood....but he looks really painful and torturing...like he was suffering from internal injury..his pants was torn...zip was opened...probally being dragged by the car after the crash....DAMN
And i asked him..."are u okay??"......he gave me a real killer stare...first time in my life...i get a stare that terrified me....seriously....imagine a killer stare from someone that looks like he is gonna die.....he used all his energy...to stare at you with anger...probably...he thought i was the one that bang-ed him =='' .....and after that he turned away.....(like asking me to get lost)...''okay..i can't do anything...if you don't want me to help" i told myself....
I got back into the car....and mummy asked me.....is that indian guy okay....."i don't know....but he don't me to help".....
But i was kinda angry at that Chinese guy that hit him.....irresponsible bugger!......he was talking on the phone....never even look at the indian guy that he hit...damn wey......he was lying in the middle of the road...it was really dangerous as there are many cars coming on both sides...

After all.....the stare spoiled my day.....been wondering whether the motorcyclist is okay or not....hope he is still alive.....and yea....i never get such a scary stare....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(