And i started to plant flowers to my life ;)

Finally, i've found a job and this is my 2nd last day working with Apex. Although the new job is not really the ideal company i looking for, but well...i'll just go in and get some experience before applying for the companies i want again.  :)

Don't know how my life gonna change, but i'm pretty sure that i am not making a wrong decision. At least i tried and step out from where am i.

A total new job, new environment, new  job scope, new company, and new colleagues for me...how fast i could adapt and get use to it? i really wish i can do it well and achieve what i want in life.

For me, just living is not enough..i wish to have sunshine, freedom and a little flower!

Finally decided to resign my current job no matter how others persuade me to stay...It wasn't a sudden decision...it was truly a hard decision for me which i've been thinking over and over again for quite long.

Yea, it's the very first time in my life...i'm making a big decision without taking the advice from family, i know mummy and sis were really disappointed but well, i really need a move...this is really not what i want and i don't wish to waste anymore time...i'm so so so sorry...

Been going here and there for interviews lately..seriously, it's not easy to find a good company....I am still uncertain on which direction to go but I've decided to try up sales job. However, seems like i do not look and sound that convincing to be able to handle sales job. Maybe i'm too soft i don't know.....
Some of the friends was pretty surprise that i decided to look for sales job as well....they told me that with the result and experience i have, i can easily find an advertising job or a job which is much related to this field. But there's some others factors that making me want to find a sales job as well....it's not just about doing what i want.

I understand that being protected is not a bad thing....people won't bully me and no one dares to talk bad about me or scold me....but i need to learn to handle all these thing by myself....i wish to see more and talk more to other people,  i need to learn to be street smart.. and yes, i'm really ready for that.

Aren't he cute? :)

Hope for nothing but this lil notty to grow up healthily and happily!

It's Life

Haven't been updating my blog for quite a while. Nothing cool happened in this few months..some ups and downs in my life...about my job...about relationship...about family...but well, i guess i just have to bear with it...that's life, i'm learning to take things easy.

Time flies, it passed really fast...from a young little Christine to who i am today...i guess i really changed a lot. Change in appearance...attitude..personality...and also way of thinking. I guess that's just a process of growing up, when we exposed to the society and mixed with peoples of all walks of life....we get influenced, and we learn from each and every experiences.

I learnt not to care so much about what others think, i learnt to open up myself and talk to people around even i'm not familiar with them..i learnt to talk differently to peoples of different age, level and type.
I've also learnt not to tell secrets to friends who are not so close and i learnt not to trust people easily..  I'm learning to live and survive in the society now :S

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Life is so unpredictable.....sometimes, it's so hard so accept something in our life and we really hope that the next day we wake up....we realized that everything happened is just a dream...how good if it's just a dream...

But well....i'm glad that my family is all here.....supporting each others...helping each other to go through the hard times.....
Be positive....everything gonna be alright :) Be good to everyone...cause i believe that our life will be treating us back the same way....

Kevin & Michelle

One after another sister getting married....house become so quiet suddenly.....
Mummy and daddy are getting old...after so many years of nagging and taking care in each and everything of our life (the six of us). Seeing their hair colours turning from black to grey...I really need to appreciate them more...

Giving them a hug when i reach home or kissing them before i go to work can actually make their day...Although sometimes i hope to show them how wrong is their thinking...how society has changed and they has been left behind...but i held back...i don't want them to feel old, i don't want to make them feel bad...
But i really wish that someday....they will understand that each of us...need to learn to stand on our own feet...we need to learn to accept failure and go through the obstacles in our life in order to be a tough person. <3

Anyway...those pictures above is Michelle and Kevin's pre-wedding pictures...hope that they will cherish each others and hold each others tightly until the end of their life....I know they can do it :)

Updates for 2011

It's been 9 months....i know i'm a lazy blogger...Well, time for some craps...

Life will not always goes the way we want, but we got to learn to appreciate...and have faith in the God...as long we do not do something bad to others, everything's gonna be okay

Someone asked me an interesting question that day..."If u were given a chance to change your everything with someone...who you want to exchange with?"
It seems like a hard-to-answer question where people will start thinking to exchange with ermmm..someone with a super hot body? someone with an angel face? someone with lots of money? someone famous? etc etc.....but my answer was "no one"....i prefer to be myself....i appreciate everything given to me...i don't need to be famous so that everyone knows me whenever i walk down the street...i don't need to have an angel face and hot body to catch everyone's attention..but i am glad to have a perfect family...i like to live with people around me...and i'm thankful for everything i have now..

I will be starting my new job on the very first day of 2012, hope that i can get used with the new working environment in no time...and i guess i will miss my colleagues and those people who worked with me on the events before....seriously...i had lots of fun in this half a year..although this job was really stress and tiring sometimes...

Just passed my 22nd birthday...had great celebrations with the bestiess, kyean and family....the only wish for my birthday is to be happy everyday (i know it is not easy at all)....people likes to make 982974936587436591 wishes on their birthday...but in order to avoid that the God missed any birthday wishes of mine.....i made only one wish so that He can remember :)....LOL

Time for bed......good night world! (:

No Shouting~!

Saw this article in The Star today in the Heart & Soul section, a very meaningful article, and it is worth-sharing indeed :)

Once a professor asked his students " Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?" The students thought for a while before one of them said :" We shout because we lose our calm?"

" But why shout when other people is just next to you? Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice?"

The students gave various answers, none of which satisfied the professor.

Finally he explained :" When two people are angry with each other, their hearts distance. To cover the distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the louder they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance."

Then he asked :"What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly. Why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small."

"When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak- they only whisper and get closer to each other in their love."

"Finally they do not even need to whisper. They only look at each other, that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other."

So, when you argue, do not let your hearts get distance of say words that distance each other even more, or there may come a day when the distance is so great you will not find the path back to each other.

-Starmag, Sunday 9 Jan 2011-

Stop Arguing Your Friendship to Death

What you think about rivalry between friends?? For me, it's like a friendship toxic waste. Well, people argue for reason, but destructive arguing between friends will eventually destroy a friendships. They used to say that the opposite of arguing isn't agreement in all things, it is knowing how to disagree and still maintain mutual respect and liking. I strongly agree with this.

Hmm, there are actually few reasons that caused this thing to happen-- Jealousy, Misunderstand, Cannot agree with each others on something, or maybe there is another person that trying to spoil the friendship, and so forth.

I just couldn't understand when i see friends talking bad about each others when they themselves are doing the same thing. Friends backstab, misunderstand, gossip and even argue with each others over some small things are seriously damn funny....Hmm, maybe friendship is really so fragile for them???... i just couldn't understand why....

Well, I am just feeling a bit disappointed all in a sudden, that's why I am writing this....friends that used to be so close become so unfamiliar....

Today, I saw many high school friends posting stupid shout out in Facebook, knowing that they are having some big argument over a stupid thing. Couldn't do much as i am not that close with them, but i feel damn one kind...I don't understand why they can't just settle things face to face but posted it in Facebook and letting the whole world knows about the argument???? Well, it's kinda stupid....letting more people to know will just makes the situation gets even worse.

Tells it out face to face if you really appreciate your friendship with them....how if it is just a small thing that caused misunderstand.....don't you think that it's not worth at all??? Tells it out and let him or her knows what you think....don't just keep quiet and pretend to be okay when it's not....

I'm officially 21 ~!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Wooh....I'm officially 21......hmmmm.....my very first wish for my birthday is to become more matured :)

Well, the birthday was just awesomeeeeeeee.....thanks everyone!!!!....thanks dearssss for putting so much efforts......i know u guys had been planned for the day for quite long......hehe.....really really appreciate it......thanks darling..thanks mei mei...thanks baobei...thanks Tengky teng....thanks for all the nicely wrapped presentsss....thanks for all your time...thanks for all the birthday wishes.....thanks for all the surpriseSSS  :) ..... ♥ ♥ ♥ (Too many surprises this year....almost get heart attack!...lol)

The very first surprise was given by the monkey friends that came all the way from KL to Kampar ♥...  They brought me to 21st in Kampar......talked craps (like usual) and drink. The night was fun and i didn't expect that there's another surprise for me when they sent me back. (Ky actually told Raymond about his plan to surprise me in my room....at 12 am.....so everything was planned nicely). When i reached home, i rushed into my room cause Jie wanted to use my toilet........but when i opened the toilet door, i was so shocked!......Kyean was holding a plate of cookies (made by himself, Evon and her sis)....nicely decorated with ribbons and also candles around.....He started to sing birthday song for me :) The very first thing that came into my mind was...."how the hell he get my room's key?????" (He told me he actually duplicated it few months ago after that @@) I was really surprised and happy, the cookies are nice.....although it looks a bit....hmmmm >.<

The next morning......woke up with stomach cramp....thought to skip the lecture class in case i fainted in the lecture hall again...lol.....but i didn't...i took painkillers....and eventually i felt better. Kyean said that he can't fetch me to class as he needs to settle his fyp stuffs, so he needs to reach sch damn early....and so, i decided to follow Peggy.....didn't sense anything gonna happens.......I reached lecture hall....walked in and paying so much attention on what the lecturer was teaching AS USUAL :).......when the lecture class ended......Kyean walked down...announced something about the Advertising exhibition ......and talked craps down there....=.=...saying that this is his last lecture class in Utar..bla bla bla....there was like few hundreds ppl in the class, i wondered why he got the guts to stand down there and talked like nobody @_____@!!! and yea.....he said la....that day is someone's birthday....(haha....i know he gonna say that)...and he asked everyone to sing a birthday song for me...my face gone red that time...seriously, i was damn shy ;)...just before the birthday song finish.....Krystal walked in.....holding a birthday cake and walked towards me. It was my fav Secret Recipe cake!..They are just too sweeeeeeeeeet......that's probably the best cake i ever had <3

(Kyean actually went to class early to plan the whole thing with the lecturer =.= no wonder Ms Jass was asking me how was my celebration in class that day...i wondered how she knows @@)

The forth surprise was given by Kyean as well.........he brought me to a nice restaurant in Ipoh (Secret Garden)...and i was told that we just gonna take our dinner somewhere near....or maybe the mamak nearby since he got stuffs to do =.=
When we reached the place, a table was nicely prepared with candles as Kyean told the boss that he is gonna celebrate my birthday....(the boss is actually Ky's friend and he kinda planned with him for the dinner few days before my birthday).....he told me that there's suppose to have saxophone player to play birthday song for me.....but he is not performing that day :( .....The night was awesome as well.....the food there are nice....and the environment is kinda romantic..soft songs playing with yellow lightings...nice atmosphere....hmmm....great place for dating :S

Let's see some pictures of this awesome dayyyy :)

the chocolate cookies ♥ 

First Bday cake- Chocolate Indulgence

Ky and the lecturer- Ms Tan

They have the most retarded face >.<

Me and the darling ♥

the first present :)

the second cake by Kyean :)

Second celebration with my Dearssss
They brought me to MidValley after Mildred and Yuki finished their work.......had lots of fun and took 8324826598673 of pictures as well~ (Not gonna upload the pic here ;))

We always have great time together....thanks dearies <3

Third celebration with ma family <3
Daddy booked a nice place for dinner, somewhere in Cannaught :) didn't take picture of myself as we all were busy eating that time >.<

Yummy~

That's all for my 21st birthday....it was probably one of the happiest day in my life :) thanks everyone....really appreciate it <3

Pre Graduation Shoot

1 more long trimester to go....we will officially graduate from our degree course...
Time flies....thought that life will be hard and torturing in Kampar...remember the first day i walked into the class with ShuPing...everyone stared at us like we are the aliens....probably thought we entered the wrong class (cause we skipped the first year)..i remember every single day of the first week.....it was like living in the hell..

Slowly....we get to know a gang of nice friends.....1year plus passed and we are graduating soon...this feeling was exactly like how i felt during the last few semesters in Diploma....
I know i gonna miss those time hanging out with my friends....fooling around....talk nonsense.....disturb each others...and a lot more after we graduate...

What's gonna happen after we graduate....
We will be on different track...different places...and busy with our life??? :(
But no matter how....i won't forget all the great memories in Kampar with d gang of crazy friends...

With the darling and BaoBei <3

the photographer~ HonLeong

d BaoBei <3

Mooooooo

TaiLoonggggggg :)

The classmates

d guys

<3

KokWei~~~

Even & Karen

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

TIRED OF YOUR LIFE?????....read this....

Institute of Silence

Sometimes...when you've been misunderstood..people blame you when it's not even your fault....You are tired to explain..you don't want to argue...just keep quiet...

Not everyone in the world have to know you....understand you..so, you don't need to explain everytime.....you don't need to argue so that everyone will eventually believe you.....you don't need to.....

But there are times that you are misunderstood by your love ones...you are too sad to argue....you are too sad to explain...and well, you chose to keep quiet.....

Everyone in the world can misunderstand you, can blame you for no reason.....but him/her should know, should understand you better than anyone else.....so if him/her chose not to trust you....whatelse you need to say...and why putting so much effort to explain just to make him/her trust you??? So, don't say anything....silence is perhaps the best way at this moment....and yea...it might be the best explaination.....

Just be cool....be calm~

You fall into the bottom of your life when everyone around you asked you to be strong...be happy....well, to be strong is absolutely necessary...but is it too hard for us to be happy in this case...

After all....who can actually be happy when they are fallen into deep shit??? But at least....just be cool.....be calm...be steady...try to solve your problem calmly...look at the matter steadily...settle everything that's supposed to be settled......there's no joy....just don't be depressed....

There is no what if

Life is a long long journey with infinate number of forks....we stop by to make choices all the time...well, choices like eating noodle or rice doesn't seem to affect us...but choices like which university to go for tertiary eduacation, which company to work, getting marry or not, whether to have children or not and so forth....there are far-reaching implications of each choices we made....different choices we take will bring an entirely different life..

We do not given the opportunity to repeat our life again so that we can also try on the other choices....."what if I chose to do this and that.....what if I don't take this last time......will it be the same as what i get now???" hmm.....every fork in our life......every choices we made don't actually caused good or bad to us......life is just about your ownself....don't regret...enjoy it to the max....think properly before any big decision is made.....do not look back....move forward and don't always think of 'what if'...

Don't think too much....everything is just simple

Sometimes, thinking too much will make our life complicated....we always look back....always worry about the future...

Just live our life at the moment...don't bother too much.....don't worry too much, be simple...there's no right or wrong in our life...

Control our emotions

Today wasn't a good day for you...because someone stabbed you.....You don't want to argue and you walked away...but it doen't mean that you can leave the situation of being hurt...you think back.....you get even hurt and angry......

You get so angry...and you neglected other important stuffs that need to be done...so why wasting so much effort to emo with someone.....don't waste your time.....don't waste the effort....don't let emotions control you..

So after all.....what we have to do is to be good to ourselves....don't be bad to other people......do what we have to do in our life....that's more than enough =)

Boring holiday~

Aiks....what a boring holiday...bumming at home everyday....and finally, i decided to draw something...

It was already half a year that i never draw using water colour...hmmm...Used about 3 days to finish the whole thing cause wasn't really in the drawing mood as my house was damn noisy....

tada~ Was actually checking on some nice photos online....and i saw this nice photo....

photo being converted into painting

And this is my masterpiece using water colour :)

and yea...i tried on some different methods on this drawing....used lots of dry brush

and the white colour part stil haven't dry after a long night =.=

D colour palette
and guess what, i never wash it since the first time i use..already 5 years i guess @@

LOVE and HATE

They used to say...when two people are in love, they love to make promises,they love to make each other to swear. I found it meaningless, since the first relationship that's now broken....

"till the ocean dry....till the sky falls....till the hair turns grey...till we both lying on the rocking chair and look at each other with wrinkled smile...bla bla bla....." sounds funny but yet...the promises were so sincere and i actually believe in it....naive right...LOL...

And so, i learnt not to make empty promises...and yea...not to trust people easily with all the promises now.....

Today i came across this meaningful article....it says that love is not possessive. "If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put in in your basin so that the moonlight only shines for you.." In other words, we shouldn't be selfish in love, there's million methods of possessing the one you love, some will just let him/her to become a permanent memory in their life...wishing him/her happiness...hoping that he/she will be with the one he/she loves most...but not stopping him/her from it..hmm..i think it is really magnanimous and indeed the greatest part of love??...love is not about keeping someone for your pride....but if both of them love each others a lot.....that will be a whole different story larr.....

People used to say that love only happens at the right place and the right time. Im definitely agreee with this......but sadly, it might not be the right person everytime....

Anyway, i believe that true love will never become hate..i wonder why the one that wanted to let go always the one that being blamed.....but at least the one that says it out has the courage...once he/she found out that you are not the right person....you should be thankful as he/she didn't drag it any longer...so why hate him/her???

Well, we are helpless as he/she chose to hate us right...but at least we gain soomething in each and every relationship......so i will never hate anyone that i loved/love... :)

Matta Fair....

Worked for Matta fair last weekend....super duper tired...all because of the heels and thick make up again...but luckily the agent allow me to wear flats after the first day..hehe...it was indeed a great experience....~!!
Met many new friends...and it was pretty fun...
What i need to do was just to ask people to join and sign as member of this Marina Bay Sands hotel.....thought it gonna be hard because it was pretty complicated....i mean the hotel packages...but during that 3 days......people will just come to our booth automatically....and ask....so we just need to explain to them briefly....and most of them wouldn't hesitate much cause it was a free membership thing...and it is a super famous 6 stars hotel in Singapore...on top of that, they can even get $20 Singapore dollar voucher!! WAU...how i wish i am 21 now ...so that i can sign for that also....and get this $20 voucher so that i can go to their sky park for free!!!! :(

The group photo with people from Marina Bay Sands, Singapore

The girls, and guess what...i am the shortest >.<

Super tall girl Elaine (she is 183 ~!!) and the sweet pretty girl Siew Mei =)

Me and Tiong Tiong...(cute girl with cute name..hehe)

And yea...this is Marina Bay Sands.. nice right~!!

The night view~

Noble

The Sky Park!!! Awhhh....